Flashback Favorite - Blindsided

I received one of those calls this week - my wife was in a car accident due to the other driver’s negligence. She’s ok. Nothing is broken, but she’s feeling beat up, stiff, and sore. The car, however, is not ok. So as we deal with the fallout of this unexpected situation, I’m bringing back a post from nearly 11 years ago about Psalm 119. I often come back to it when life doesn’t go as planned. I hope it’s a good reminder for you, as well.

Blindsided
Originally posted on May 22, 2015

Blindsided.
Knocked down.
Run over.
Left for dead.

Life does that sometimes.  Just completely out of the blue, you get that phone call.  A relative in good health suddenly dies.  A friend’s child is in an accident.  Layoffs.  Divorce.  Cancer.  Any number of things can take us out at the knees without any warning.

And we’re quickly reminded of how fragile and small we really are.

In Psalm 119:25-32, the author use two descriptive phrases to relate how he feels after life has knocked him down.  First he says, my life is down in the dust.  Other translations render his words as my soul clings to the dust or I collapse in the dirt.  He feels so low that he can only relate to the trampled dirt on the ground.  Secondly he says, I am weary from grief.  Other translations relay the author’s meaning by stating my soul melts from heaviness and my soul weeps because of grief.  We can relate to the psalmist because we’ve all had times when our hearts are so heavy that even our souls are shedding tears.

Our typical reactions to getting knocked down by life is to ask God “Why me?” or, if we’re feeling mature, we’ll ask “God, what are You trying to teach me in this?”  However, the psalmist has neither of those responses.

As you read this section of Psalm 119, look for where the psalmist turns to when life has brought him down low:

Psalm 119:25-32
My life is down in the dust; give me life through Your word.
I told You about my life, and You listened to me; teach me Your statutes.
Help me understand the meaning of Your precepts so that I can meditate on Your wonders.
I am weary from grief; strengthen me through Your word.
Keep me from the way of deceit, and graciously give me Your instruction.
I have chosen the way of truth; I have set Your ordinances before me.
I cling to Your decrees; Lord, do not put me to shame.
I pursue the way of Your commands, for You broaden my understanding.

When life has him down in the dust to the point where he is weary from grief, the psalmist looks for life and strength though Your word.  He’s not looking for an explanation or a life-lesson, rather he is looking for God himself, as revealed in Scripture.

It is noteworthy that when he asks God to help me understand, he’s not looking for the meaning of what knocked him down to the ground…instead he’s asking God to explain the meaning of Your precepts.  Again, he’s not focused on how he got there or why he got there…he’s focusing on meeting God in the midst of it all.

When life has knocked him down, the psalmist implicitly trusts God with all aspects of the situation.  And he seeks God through the Scriptures to reinforce his faith.

So should we.

Keep Pressing,
Ken 

Enjoy this

In my 30s, I got into sprint-distance triathlons.  These mini-tests of endurance (swim, bike, run = 3x the fun!) ended up being the gateway for me to dabble in long-distance running.  While I did end up running two marathons…my favorite running distances were anything from about 8 miles up to 18 miles.  There was something special about slowly adding the miles on each week, working my way up to distances that I once thought were impossible (or, at least, only for crazy people to attempt).

Between a significant shoulder injury and then moving to a new state, I lost the running bug.  However, I’ve never forgotten the feeling of a “runner’s high” or the accomplished feeling of hitting a new longest-distance mark. 

About a year ago, I took up swimming again.  Nothing fancy, just laps in a pool.  I haven’t been following a training regimen.  I swim to enjoy the feeling of moving smoothly through the water.  Running and cycling have gravity pulling on you from a vertical position as you maneuver through the air, but swimming is different – gravity pulls at you from a horizontal position as you maneuver through the water.  Each week, my endurance has increased a little bit.  How I can tell has shown up in a variety of ways: I feel not-quite-as-exhausted after a swim, less time needed to recover the next day, or that my breaks between laps have shortened.  And lately, my weekly distance has been increasing.

This past week, as I counted each 50m lap and kept an eye on the time, I began to realize that I had a shot at swimming a distance that I hadn’t made it up to yet.  However, I knew that if I was going to hit a new distance record, I would have to focus on my technique as my arms and core became more and more tired.  Concentrating on making smooth strokes, I felt a renewed strength as I continued the laps.  And then, a two-word thought popped into my head: Enjoy this.

It wasn’t a “Thus saith the Lord” moment, but I knew what those words meant – in this moment of struggle, enjoy the ability to push beyond what you thought you were capable of before.  And I did enjoy that feeling…even as my lungs burned, my shoulders ached, and my core felt tired.  Endurance is something that you may not realize you have until you’ve tested your limits…and there is strength to be found in the moment when our ability to keep going is challenged.

Before that lap was complete, this verse came to mind:

James 1:2-3
Consider it a great joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you experience various trials, because you know that the testing of your faith produces endurance.

I whine and grumble too much (especially internally) when life is harder than I want it to be.  Other translations say “Consider it pure joy” when trials come…and that’s always been a hard command to wrap my head around.  At least, until I went swimming this week.  Maybe you’re like me, and we’re prone to focus on the various trials…instead of what they produce in us.  I love that James points out our pity party, stating that you know this is good for you, I know that trials are good for me, because the only way to produce endurance is to test our perceived limits.

But God isn’t looking to just increase our ability to stick out tough times.  He has something bigger in mind:

James 1:4
And let endurance have its full effect, so that you may be mature and complete, lacking nothing.

Our pathway to maturity – living fully within the person God designed us to be – is paved with opportunities to increase our endurance.  Without the experience of various trials, we will be too weak to become who God created us to be.  When difficulties come – and you know they will – as you persevere through them, going further than you’ve gone before, please remember these two words:

Enjoy this.

Keep Pressing,
Ken

A personal pep-talk

Life’s been busy lately.  “Very full” would be a better description. 

I won’t list everything out for you…I fear that would not only be rather dull for you to read, but I don’t want to get anywhere near a “humble-brag”, either.  To say I have shared a lot of worthwhile time with many different people/groups, both at work and in the community, will suffice.

I’d rather we talk about how we feel when we’re dealing with a season like this.  There’s some mixture of tired-fulfilled-weary-happy-reflective-drained that I think we can all relate to.

That’s why I love spending time in the book of Psalms.  These song-writers did not hold back on sharing their life experiences with God.  You’ll find the entire range of emotions, multiple times over, as you read through them.

Here’s a portion of Psalm 42 that is really resonating with me right now:

Psalm 42:5-8
Why, my soul, are you so dejected?  Why are you in such turmoil?
Put your hope in God, for I will still praise Him, my Savior and my God.

I am deeply depressed; therefore I remember You
from the land of Jordan and the peaks of Hermon, from Mount Mizar.

Deep calls to deep in the roar of Your waterfalls;
all Your breakers and Your billows have swept over me.

The Lord will send His faithful love by day;
His song will be with me in the night – a prayer to the God of my life.

I wouldn’t say I’m at the level of feeling dejected and deeply depressed, but I recognize those feelings from other times in my life.  We all go through seasons when those are very real and very deeply felt.

The part of this psalm that resonates for me right now is the psalmist giving himself a pep-talk.  Did you notice that?  He’s talking to his own soul.  He identifies the feelings of turmoil, but doesn’t claim them as his identity.  Instead, the psalmist encourages himself to put your hope in God, insisting that despite how low he feels, I will still praise Him, my Savior and my God.

When we’re struggling, a dejected soul may want to just curl up in a ball in a dark room, but instead, the psalmist takes three bold steps away from the darkness:

1.       When he feels depressed, his first step is to remember the God who loves him.

2.       Next, he enjoys nature – being present in and listening to the sounds of God’s creation, like His waterfalls, can help clean out the junk we feel inside.

3.       Lastly, he looks for God by day and in the night, trusting that God will meet him there.

This three-step pep-talk helps clarify our perspective when a season of life has been so full.  However, let’s be clear – these steps don’t “work” because we simply do them.  We’re not capable of fixing ourselves.  These steps only “work” because by doing them, we bring ourselves back to the God who loves us more than we can understand.  Keeping close to Him is what we truly need, in all of life’s seasons.

Keep Pressing,
Ken

What's in the New Testament?

We commonly refer to the Bible as a “book” – in fact, it is the best-selling book of all-time.  However, the Bible itself is a collection of 66 individual books.  These books were written over approximately 1500 years, by 40 different authors, and in 3 different languages (Hebrew, Aramaic, and Greek).

Through the Holy Spirit, God inspired the authors to write His words and His message to humanity.  Each author brought their own experiences, concerns, and writing style…and as such, we have a variety of literature types within the Scriptures.  The major division of the Bible’s books is between the Old Testament and the New Testament.  For this blog post, we’ll look at what God has said in the New Testament:

New Testament – This is a collection of 27 books which details Jesus’ birth, ministry, death on the cross, His resurrection, and the world-wide impact of these events.  They are divided into 5 different categories:

The Gospels – These 4 accounts tell of Jesus’ life, ministry, death, and resurrection.  The only other historical contemporary to Jesus who had four biographical accounts of their life at that time was the Emperor Tiberius.  The gospels show a remarkable consistency for having been written by four different authors writing for four different audiences.  The gospels are Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John.

History – Just one book, Acts.  It begins with Jesus giving the disciples their mission to tell the world about Him, and then He ascends into the heavens.  The rest of the book tells how this mission was fulfilled through the early church.  It also reveals Paul’s incredible conversion to Christianity and his role as a missionary.

Paul’s letters – Not only did Paul take multiple missionary trips, bringing the gospel to several nations around the Mediterranean, but he also wrote letters to the churches he established and specific people he partnered with in ministry.  These books contain a mixture of Christian doctrine/teachings and practical advice on how to live like Jesus in a messed-up world.  Paul’s letters include: Romans, 1 Corinthians, 2 Corinthians, Galatians, Ephesians, Philippians, Colossians, 1 Thessalonians, 2 Thessalonians, 1 Timothy, 2 Timothy, Titus, and Philemon.

General letters – These are smaller letters written to larger Christian audiences.  They contain additional teachings and practical applications.  These letters include: Hebrews, James, 1 Peter, 2 Peter, 1 John, 2 John, 3 John, and Jude.

Prophecy – The book of Revelation is God’s foretelling of the end of earth’s history and the beginning of Jesus reign into Eternity Future.  You’ll find lots of symbolism and references back to many Old Testament people and situations.  Whereas Genesis begins with the story of Paradise Lost, Revelation ends with Paradise Restored.

A few things to keep in mind:

The Bible isn’t a science text – but it does contain some science references.  The Bible isn’t a history book, but there’s never been an archeological find that has contradicted a historical statement in the Bible.  The Bible never claimed to be “the book of every explanation”, but it does contain everything we need to understand God’s love and design for humanity.  The Bible tells us of God’s original partnership with us, how we fouled it up, and God’s plan to rescue us from the mess we’ve made.

I hope and pray that this brief description is helpful to you…perhaps even spurred some questions or curiosity about a book of the Bible you haven’t read in a while.  I’ll end with Paul’s encouragement to his protégé, Timothy:

2 Timothy 3:16-17
All Scripture is inspired by God and is profitable for teaching, for rebuking, for correcting, for training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be complete, equipped for every good work.

Keep Pressing,
Ken

What’s in the Old Testament?

We commonly refer to the Bible as a “book” – in fact, it is the best-selling book of all-time.  However, the Bible itself is a collection of 66 individual books.  These books were written over approximately 1500 years, by 40 different authors, and in 3 different languages (Hebrew, Aramaic, and Greek).

Through the Holy Spirit, God inspired the authors to write His words and His message to humanity.  Each author brought their own experiences, concerns, and writing style…and as such, we have a variety of literature types within the Scriptures.  The major division of the Bible’s books is between the Old Testament and the New Testament.  For this blog post, we’ll look at what God has said in the Old Testament:

Old Testament – This is a collection of 39 books of ancient Hebrew literature, which begins with the story of Creation and the fall of humanity into sin, which separates all of us from God.  These texts continue through the establishment and history of the nation of Israel, which are broken down into 4 major categories:

Torah/Pentateuch – These are the 5 books of Moses.  Torah is Hebrew for “teaching” and Pentateuch simply means “five books”.  These books detail out how God created everything, but quickly focus in on the establishment of the nation of Israel.  The books include: Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers, and Deuteronomy.

History – These 12 books travel through Israel’s many ups and downs as they struggle between keeping in step with God and doing everything on their own.  Many of the familiar Old Testament stories are found in these books: Joshua, Judges, Ruth, 1 Samuel, 2 Samuel, 1 Kings, 2 Kings, 1 Chronicles, 2 Chronicles, Ezra, Nehemiah, and Esther.

Poetry/Wisdom – This is a collection of some of the most interesting and beautiful poetry you’ve ever read.  Many common sayings we still use today trace their origins back to this section of the Bible.  These books include: Job, Psalms, Proverbs, Ecclesiastes, and Song of Solomon.

Prophecy – God sent many prophets to Israel throughout the centuries.  Their writings are divided into what is call the “Major Prophets” and the “Minor Prophets”.  However, that distinction has nothing to do with the importance of their individual message, rather the prophets’ writings are divided up by size, with the Major Prophets having significantly bigger texts than the Minor Prophets:

Major Prophets: Isaiah, Jeremiah, Lamentations, and Ezekiel
Minor Prophets: Daniel, Hosea, Joel, Amos, Obadiah, Jonah, Micah, Nahum, Habakkuk, Zephaniah, Haggai, Zechariah, and Malachi

After Malachi’s teaching, God did not send a prophet to speak to Israel for approximately 400 years.  Then everything changed with the arrival of Jesus. 

Some modern-day Christians have wondered if it’s worth our time to read and study the Old Testament.  After all, since Jesus came and saved us, wouldn’t His teachings be enough for us to focus on?

The Apostle Paul had to say this to the church he planted in Corinth, in reference to the events of the Old Testament:

1 Corinthians 10:11
These things happened to them as examples, and they were written for our instruction

There are three ways to learn – by instruction, by example, or the hard way.  God has given us instruction and examples in the Old Testament so we don’t have to learn the hard way.  As such, it’s definitely worth our time to see what God has to say in those books.

Keep Pressing,
Ken

Lessons from a criminal

Tomorrow is known as “Good Friday”.  It seems strange to call the remembrance of an innocent man’s murder anything close to “good”… but that’s what we often see when God steps into our lives – what we assume doesn’t always match up with reality.

Jesus was wrongfully arrested, tried in a kangaroo court, and then used as a political pawn before being sentenced to death on a cross…all despite being innocent.  That certainly doesn’t seem “good”, either.  Crucifixion was one of the most barbaric ways to die, as the victim bleeds out, slowly suffocating as their strength fails while the hours, and even days, drag on.  The Romans perfected the process to exact as much pain and suffering as possible.  Over a 500-year span, it is estimated that Rome crucified somewhere between hundreds of thousands to as many as two million people.  That doesn’t sound “good” at all.

Yet, we still call the day Jesus was crucified “Good Friday”.  However, Jesus wasn’t the only person nailed to a cross that day.  Let’s take a look at Luke’s account:

Luke 23:32-42
Two others – criminals – were also led away to be executed with Him.  When they arrived at the place called The Skull, they crucified Him there, along with the criminals, one on the right and one on the left.  Then Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, because they do not know what they are doing.”  And they divided His clothes and cast lots.

The people stood watching, even the leaders were scoffing: “He saved others; let Him save Himself if this is God’s Messiah, the Chosen One!”  The soldiers also mocked Him.  They came offering Him sour wine and said, “If you are the king of the Jews, save yourself!”

An inscription was above Him: This is the King of the Jews.

Then one of the criminals hanging there began to yell insults at Him: “Aren’t you the Messiah?  Save Yourself and us!”

But the other answered, rebuking him: “Don’t you even fear God, since you are undergoing the same punishment?  We are punished justly, because we’re getting back what we deserve for the things we did, but this man has done nothing wrong.”  Then he said, “Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.”

The Jewish nation looked forward to the day when the Messiah would arrive, rescue the nation from their oppressors, and set up the kingdom which God had promised for centuries.  This future resurrection/redemption is likely what the criminal was referring to.  Because of this, the criminal who had just put his faith in Jesus, believing that He was the promised Messiah, was probably surprised by what Jesus said to him next:

Luke 23:43
And He said to him, “Truly I tell you, today you will be with Me in paradise.”

When would this criminal see Jesus again?  When would he receive eternal life from Jesus?  Today.

Jesus’ gift of eternal life, for all who believe in Him, isn’t an IOU that will be fulfilled at some point in the future.  No, when we believe in Jesus, He gives us eternal life today.  Right now.  Not something to earn, not something to prove.  It’s His gift to you, and we can receive it because of His death on the cross.

He paid the penalty for our selfish, sinful lives – and because of that we are able to live the life we were initially created to live out.

John 10:10
A thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy.  I have come so that they may have life and have it in abundance.

The Greek word for may have is a present tense verb.  Jesus meant that we can have an abundant life right now, just like the criminal received.  All we have to do is believe that Jesus is who He says He is – the Messiah, the Savior sent by God – just like the criminal did.

And if Jesus considers a criminal who has been condemned to die as someone worth saving, then His offer is good for any of us, too.  That is good news for us.  That’s why it’s called “Good Friday”.

Keep Pressing,
Ken

Dealing with agitation

There are so many triggers that lead to me being agitated.

I hate to admit that.  I’d like to be better at managing it.  What I have gotten better at is keeping the surface-level calm, but the agitation still stirs in my heart.  I’m not certain that’s real progress, though.

Sometimes, my agitation is my own fault.  If I’m running late, I always seem to find the lane with the slowest driver…which, of course, means I’ll hit all the red lights along my path, too.  Or I could get pulled into what I thought would be a short conversation that quickly turns into a deeper discussion than I wanted to budget my time for.  A particularly agitating situation for me is when I’m depending on someone – especially if I’ve paid this person to do a job – and they aren’t meeting the standard we had agreed to. 

Do any of these situations sound familiar?

The American Hertitage Dictionary has this description as a part of its definition of agitation:

A stirring up or arousing; disturbance of tranquility; disturbance of mind which shows itself by physical excitement

That sounds about right.  I may begin with feeling frustration, but if I progress to agitation, there’s probably some physical tell to go along with the shift in my mood.  I’ve suddenly lost my poker face.  The chances of me lashing out before thinking it through have definitely gone up.

One sure-fire way to get me agitated is external to me.  I despise people taking advantage of others or taking advantage of “the system”.  We all need to make a living, but we don’t have to price-gouge.  I am 100% in support of entrepreneurs (there are several in my family), but I’m shocked and agitated when people create fake businesses, like daycares or hospice centers, only to get paid out by government programs.  Worse yet, it appears that some people just take advantage of others simply “because they can”…and that agitates me to no end. 

And to fix situations like these, we may even convince ourselves that we gotta meet them on their level.  We justify defrauding them just like they defrauded others.  We daydream of pulling it off and yelling, “See?  Do you like how that feels?”

David recognized the same feelings of agitation we have, but his advice runs counter to our knee-jerk reaction:

Psalm 37:1-9
Do not be agitated by evildoers; do not envy those who do wrong.
For they wither quickly like grass and wilt like tender green plants.

Trust in the Lord and do what is good; dwell in the land and live securely.
Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you your heart’s desires.

Commit your way to the Lord; trust in Him, and He will act,
making your righteousness shine like the dawn, your justice like the noonday.

Be silent before the Lord and wait expectantly for Him;
do not be agitated by one who prospers in his way,
by the person who carries out evil plans.

Refrain from anger and give up your rage;
do not be agitated – it can only bring harm.
For evildoers will be destroyed,
but those who put their hope in the Lord will inherit the land.

My first thought when reading through is “That sounds nice David, but not very practical.  Me ‘doing good’ doesn’t stop them from ‘doing bad’ to others.  I still see them running around taking advantage of people.”

However, this line of thinking misses what God says to do first when we’re agitated by evildoers.  “Do what is good” comes second.  “Trust in the Lord” comes first.  Too often, I expect that I can wield “my good” to bully or shame the other person into doing what I think they should.  In those cases, I haven’t included God in the equation.  I’m expecting my own righteousness to prevail.

Instead, God is telling us that we aren’t the cure for evil – He is.  When we trust Him, He will act.  But His acts will come on His timing, not ours. 

Does this mean we are to be a doormat and simply let bad people be bad?  No, I don’t think so.  Part of doing what is good is advocating for and protecting others.  But we do so with a humble attitude that God’s correction is better than us lashing out of our agitation.

Keep Pressing,
Ken

Swedish CPS overreach against a Christian family

This story is wild.  And it’s every parent’s worst nightmare.

A Romanian family, the Samsons, have been living in Sweden for nearly 10 years.  In 2022, the parents had an argument with their then-11-year-old daughter, who wanted to wear make-up and have a cell phone.  In retaliation for their decision, the daughter went to school and accused her parents of abuse.  The state put both girls into separate foster homes…and although the eldest daughter retracted her claim and the state’s investigation found no evidence of abuse – the girls have not been returned to their parents.

A March 10, 2026, press release from ADF International stated the following:

The European Court of Human Rights (ECtHR) has ruled a case brought by Christian parents Daniel and Bianca Samson against Sweden as inadmissible. The parents were seeking justice before the court to regain custody of their daughters, claiming a severe violation of their parental rights. The decision of inadmissibility is final and cannot be appealed. ADF International lawyers are now reviewing the decision together with the parents and assessing possible next steps.

The two eldest daughters of the Samson family were taken by the state in December 2022 after the eldest made a false report at school over her parents’ refusal to give her a phone and allow makeup, prompting allegations of “religious extremism,” even though she promptly retracted. The daughters have been separated from their parents, and each other, since December 2022, even though the state found no evidence of abuse.

“We deeply regret the Court’s decision to reject this case, considering that this family has been torn apart for over three years despite a full investigation that cleared Mr. and Mrs. Samson of any abuse and the fact that the Social Services certified their capacity and fitness for parenting after they successfully completed an official training. Families should be free to live according to their convictions without fear of losing their children to the state,” said Guillermo A. Morales Sancho, Legal Counsel for ADF International.

The European Court of Human Rights deemed the case inadmissible on the grounds of failure to exhaust legal remedies in Sweden, despite the legal team’s assessment that there were no further options for domestic recourse.

Specifically, the Court indicated that it did not consider there to be an apparent violation of the right to respect for private life under the European Convention on Human Rights. It further suggested that questions relating to freedom of religion may be raised before national courts, an option the Samsons may now pursue.

The state has cited the family’s regular attendance at church three times a week to corroborate accusations of “religious extremism,” despite the fact that this simply reflects their religious beliefs and is a protected action under international human rights law.

The parents can see each daughter once a month, on a supervised visit.  Both girls are being housed in separate foster homes, located far away from each other.  Both have pleaded with the courts to be reunited with each other and their family.  Both have attempted suicide while in foster care.

You can learn more about this family and their case here: https://adfinternational.org/cases/samson-family

Can you imagine being a parent in this situation?  Feelings of helplessness, worry, anger, and fear…coming in waves that are dashed against the rocks of the court’s latest ruling.

Step into the shoes of the daughters.  Everything seems hopeless.  How heavy is the regret?  How scary does the future seem?

It would be easy to be mad at God in this moment.  How could He let this level of blatant injustice happen to a family that is trying to live their lives according to their belief in Him?

Some may even argue that this latest ruling against the family is proof that God doesn’t exist, or if He does, then He doesn’t care.  Why would He allow such pain to persist?

As I processed this story, empathizing with everyone involved, my thoughts landed on the Biblical character of Joseph.  He was unjustly treated by his brothers, sold as a slave, falsely accused of a heinous crime, and wrongfully imprisoned.  Eventually, he was released from prison to serve in Pharaoh’s court…but from the time he was sold into slavery to the time he was released from prison – 13 years had passed.  That’s a lot of suffering.  That’s a lot of days, wondering why God allowed such blatant injustice to impact his life.  That’s a lot of nights, feeling alone and abandoned.  You can read the full story in Genesis 37-41.

Later, when a severe famine struck the entire region, Joseph’s family came to him for help (even though they didn’t recognize him).  The suffering that had God allowed over those 13 years had become the path that brought Joseph to the position where he could save his family from starvation.  Years later, looking back on the events of his life, Joseph said this to his brothers:

Genesis 50:20
You planned evil against me; God planned it for good to bring about the present result

I am hopeful that the Samson family will find a legal way to reunification.  We can and should pray that God makes a way as soon as possible.  However, if God does not answer our prayers in the way we think their path should go…we can pray that one day, all members of the family will say the same thing Joseph did.

Trusting God isn’t always easy.  But His track record shows that it is our best option.  Even if there is pain, suffering, injustice, and heartache along the way.

Keep Pressing,
Ken

I had to delete them all

I’ve been praying a lot more lately.  If that seems weird to read, well…I also admit that it is a little weird to type.  But the truth is, I’ve been talking with God a lot more in the past few months than in previous seasons.

If you’re wondering “why”, I can’t put my finger on just one thing – it’s more a list of influences, rather than a single event.  There’s no major tragedy happening (although that’s what tends to be the thing to push us to pray more).  Prayer has been the topic of two different sermon series at our church in the last six months, and the weekly Men’s Zoom call I participate in has been going through the book, Lead with Prayer.  I’ve also been using the morning prayers on the app Lectio365 as a launching pad to get my mind right before I pray.  But you know what draws me back to praying each morning and throughout the day, more than anything else?  I’m enjoying the time spent talking and listening to God.  That’s it.  When you have good conversation with someone, you naturally want to go back and converse some more.

Early one February morning before work that day, the house was quiet and I was sitting in my recliner with my eyes closed.  I had finished listening to and meditating along with the morning Lectio365 prayer, and I had just started to share with God what was on my mind.  I don’t remember exactly what I was praying about, but I was quickly interrupted with an impression/voice/idea from God.  I say “impression/voice/idea from God” because it wasn’t an audible voice in the room, but it was also not my voice – I know what I sound like when I talk/think internally, and this was not that.  This impression/voice/idea was very clear: You need to delete all the games off your phone.

I dismissed that thought and tried to continue on with what I was praying about, but the impression/voice/idea came back again, and more insistent this time: You need to delete all the games off your phone.  I argued back, even though I knew I didn’t have a good argument not to…I just didn’t want to.  The eight games on my phone were puzzle games, a hearts card game, and one hunting game.  Most of them I didn’t play often, a couple of them I’d play throughout the day when a moment of waiting or boredom hit.  They were a safety net when I didn’t want to think.  While playing them didn’t seem like that big of a deal, if you totaled up my game usage for the week, those random minutes here and there added up to about 1-1.5 hours per day.  So, after arguing with God for what seemed like forever, I slowly deleted them, one-by-one.

I’d like to tell you that I felt automatically free and within days became the most creative I’ve ever been in my life – but that’s not what happened.  That first week, there were numerous times I grabbed my phone, then I would stare at the screen wondering, “What exactly am I trying to do?”  I was getting a crash course of just how much I had outsourced my attention throughout the day. 

As the detoxing continued, the toughest time of day was later in the evenings, when my brain was too tired to think through most of my preferred hobbies (reading, writing, etc.) but I didn’t want to go to bed yet…what am I doing if I’m not staring at my phone?  This was especially hard at the two-week mark, that evening I wanted to do nothing more than download a game and just play the time away before bed.  However, what helped me get past that urge was the Bible app’s verse of the day.  It was part of something Paul said to his friends in Ephesus:

Acts 20:24
But I consider my life of no value to myself; my purpose is to finish my course and the ministry I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the gospel of God’s grace.

That verse really challenged me – I can’t reconcile playing app games with Paul’s focused understanding of his life and mission.  Let me be clear: apps and games for enjoyment aren’t sin.  However, as these were stealing my attention, they had also become an escape mechanism.  As such, they were pulling me away from what God had already called me to do.

This realization brought another Scripture to mind:

Hebrews 12:1-2
…let us lay aside every hindrance and the sin that so easily ensnares us.  Let us run with endurance the race that lies before us, keeping our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of our faith.

I love how the author of Hebrews distinguishes between our life experiences.  We encounter both hindrances and sins – and both of them can easily ensnare us.  The games I was playing weren’t sinful, but they were a hindrance.  They were holding back my attention from where my feet were in that particular moment.  And as I am now over a month past removing them off my phone, I’m beginning to think that the apps were also a hindrance to preparing me for whatever mission God has next for me.

So, I have to ask – Does my story resonate?  Is there something in your life that isn’t necessarily “bad”, but has become a hindrance to living out who you are as a son or daughter of God?  Is there something in your life that could keep you from taking on that next opportunity to partner with God?

It’s time to lay that aside.

Keep Pressing,
Ken

He started it

What is love?

I mean, what is it, exactly?

We throw that word around all the time…how many of these have you said?

I love chocolate.
I love vacation.
I love my mom.
I love my wife. (or husband)
I love this music.
I love my dog.
I love my job. (often said with sarcasm)

It’s the same word, every time.  But it’s not the same meaning, every time.

We expect the hearer (or reader) to understand what we actually mean based upon our tone and the context of our words.

We also find “love confusion” in our music, regardless of style.  We have many songs asking what love is, or how can I know that this feeling of love is “the real thing”, or even songs that tell us that love will fix everything.  But how can we say that it is the healing we need, if we don’t know what it is?

This is where I appreciate the Greek language more than our modern English.  The Greeks had many different words to explain the different “shades” or “types” of love a human can experience.  The main words used include agape (unconditional, selfless love), eros (romantic or sexual passion), philia (deep friendship or brotherly love), philautia (self-love), storge (familial or affectionate love), and xenia (hospitality or guest-love).

Doesn’t that make it easier to understand?  You immediately know what kind of love I’m referring to, based upon the word I chose.

In the Bible, there are three Greek words used for love: agape, philia, and storge.  While the concept of eros is present in Scripture, the word is not directly used.

So, that helps.  But we still haven’t answered the yearning-for-love question our poets and songwriters search for.  At least, until we come across this little verse in a letter from the Apostle John:

1 John 4:19
We love because He first loved us.

Both “love” words in this verse are agape.  Isn’t that the kind of love we want the most?  Oh, to be loved selflessly, unconditionally…to have the security in a relationship, knowing that our bond will not break – regardless of circumstances, my mistakes, or even my own selfish choices. 

That’s the kind of love our poets write tales about and our songwriters croon over.  That kind of dependable love makes us brave and grateful.  To receive agape love over a long period of time provides a sense of stable connection and identity found nowhere else.  When a person chooses to give us agape love, we feel valued and become emotionally secure.

And we know what that really is because He first loved us.  He started it.  God agape’d us, even when we were rather unlovely and did not deserve any form of love.  But He chose to…and because He did, we can have a constant, stable relationship with Him.

That’s how we know what love is.

Keep Pressing,
Ken